I am a Debbie Downer.
You just read that correctly.
All my life, I’ve always focused on the negatives instead of the positives. I am always coming up with ways of dealing with the worst case scenarios instead of presently enjoying the moments. A lot of it comes from my anxiety and past traumas which has conditioned my brain to react negatively toward events.
This year, I want to change that. I no longer want to be so negative all the time. I want to look at the positives instead of the negatives. I want to find the silver linings when things go south. The question is, what am I going to do and how am I going to achieve it?
About six months ago, I bought a Five Minute Journal from Amazon. I saw this journal from an Instagram influencer a few times last year. I was intrigued with the journal. I got a glimpse of the layout of the journal and I loved it! I ordered my journal online and received it a couple days later.
Before I began writing my happy thoughts away, I read the background information relating to gratitude and how it affects our mood and thoughts. I took the time to soak the information before I began the happier journey. I was looking forward to writing my thoughts down.
I used the journal for a couple of weeks until I stopped. I was drowning in stress and anxiety from work, taking care of the house on my own while taking care of a puppy. It was all too much for me, especially when I had a puppy jumping on the journal with muddy paw prints. I felt like my life wasn’t going the way I wanted it to because of the challenges brought forth. I felt like a failure.
As this year closes, I want to make the attempt at writing in my Five Minute Journal again. No, I am not going to buy a new copy of the journal. I’m going to continue using the one I have already purchased. There’s no need to waste all those unused pages. My goal is to use the journal for 60 days, starting on the first of January. I will give you an update on my mood and thoughts once the 60 days have passed.
I wouldn’t call this a New Year’s resolution. Instead this is a New Year’s adventure. I know this adventure is going to be a challenge. It’s so easy to focus on the negative moods and thoughts when I have been so used to reacting this way for so many years. I know it’s going to take more than a journal to get me to change my way of thinking, but I need to start somewhere and build on as the year progresses.